Bottled Thots - i u h e u x

29 June 2007

Yup, these few days have been tough on me & him I believe.
But when situation is tough, the tough gets going!
Yeah! So today shall not talk about him.
We'll change topic!

Wanna share some interesting sites with all.
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28 June 2007

Thank God for this is the day,
this is the day that the Lord has made!~
Yup, I thank God for Sam. He's indeed a nice bro. Hee..so thotful and sensitive.
Today he really cheered me up with all his msgs and prayers. Thank God for people around who's so encouraging, in terms of work, love life and beauty, they really helped alot.
Thank God for strength and grace that brought me through.
I pray that God will also protect him as He protects me.

Looking forward to Friday where my sisters will celebrate my 24th birthday!
(Shit. Secret revealed)
And Saturday to have lunch with Sam and late night movie with Darius!
Heh, Transformers robot in disguise~

Life is not about just "tan lian ai" or "er nu shi qing".
It consist of alot of other things.

I chose to be:
1st, God perspective.
2nd, career. Paving my route to retirement.
(so that I've more time to serve God.)
3rd, with the above two, I believe God will
eventually bless me with a great husband!

Today, another lady reminded me to take my time to choose a good husband.
Ok, i take it as God really wants me to wait.
Wait for His perfect time.
Ok, ok. I'll wait. ÜÜÜ

27 June 2007

"4Love is patient,
love is kind.
It does not envy,
it does not boast,
it is not proud.

5It is not rude,
it is not self-seeking,
it is not easily angered,
it keeps no record of wrongs.

6Love does not delight in evil
but rejoices with the truth.

7It always protects, always trusts,
always hopes, always perseveres.

8Love never fails."

- 1 Corinthians 13

Indeed God's assurance lighten my heart.
Again and again, I'm asked to wait.
And this famous quotation about LOVE.
The 1st verse emphasize it further,
"Love is patient"

Dear God, please strengthen me in this area.
Adjust my spiritual clock according to Yours.
You will only give me the best.
Nothing less.
Thank you for being the same always.
For loving me always.
For standing by me always.
I asked all this in Jesus' name.
Amen.

26 June 2007

I don't wished to say I'm lost..
Because I'm a christian.
God is always there to guide.
So why that lostness..?

But I'm feeling it alittle now..
Coz I've misplaced my trust in
someone whom I thot I can rely on.
And maybe for the rest of my life.
Chinese sayings:" xi wang yue gao, shi wang yue da"
Meaning: "Having higher expectations, brings greater disappointment"

I don't understand why he said that.
Is it because he didn't want to commit himself?
Is it beacuse he didn't really love me to that extend?
Is it because he wanted more freedom?
Is it because he just needed abit more time?
I really hope he has good reasons for doing so.

He called me yesterday.
I wasn't happy that he called actually.
Coz its not the same anymore.
Its just a routine to me.
Its just a habit to him.

I still can't calm myself down.
I must admit there's some kinda hatre in my heart.
I hated him for wasting my time.
My youth is very limited.
And these few years are my critical years.
I need to get married.
As everybody seems to keep asking me, "when's your turn?"
The sad truth is, I don't even have a boyfriend...

25 June 2007

Today God spoke alot to me
with regards to my love life.
I made my choice at the altar call.
My decision is to rely on the Holy Spriit
empowerment instead of my so-called
"strong will".

I decided to tell him about it.
Thinking with that,
we'll focus and work hard together.
You know..working towards the same goal
together is different from doing it alone.

But all I get at the end of the day is,
"Why not we give ourself some time.
Coz I'm not really sure what I want."

With that, I'm totally disappointed.
We've known each other for 6mths.
Its been known to everyone that he's after me..
and he said that...

Well, I can only trust God now.
If he's not the one.
Then I'm gonna get a better one.

Sounds deceiving and seems pathetically
lonesome-cheerer kinda common quotes.
No, God is the Way, the Truth and the Light.
So, this is the truth!
I gotta etch that deep in mind & heart.
No more circles.
I got out.
Amen!

*Forcing a sweet smile*

Anyway, this lil cutie flash jigsaw game
is gonna keep me busy for the time being.
Play Flash Jigsaw Game!

Labels: My Emotions

24 June 2007

Guess what is this!

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Times up!

This is a dog.
It won the Ugliest Dog Contest 2007.

Don't you agree it's ugly indeed?

Labels: Fun Stuff

23 June 2007

There's Something In The Water

I'm a lil outta mind today. Maybe he's not around that's why. Maybe becoz I knew he was meeting his close friend who's giving him a lunch treat and 1st thing that came to my mind is...will she be around? Sighh..what gotten over me. Having weirdishly isolationalogy session now.

Easy Graphical Multiplication

So i ran thru some dumb vids just now and here's some to share with you. To drive away the weirdishly isolation diseases, germs and viruses...

Labels: Meaningful Videos

22 June 2007

Instead of always just dramas and movies,
check out some healthy videos!
http://www.wrongdiagnosis.com/c/cold/video.htm

"Our parents told us to cover our mouths when we cough.

But that might not be the best strategy for flu prevention.

Listen to an infection control expert discuss the new cough etiquette."

Flu Prevention

Pretty interesting and it'll help to equip you with more knowledge.

Protect yourself against common diseases of today!

Labels: Meaningful Videos

21 June 2007

Play RGB

RGB is a great-looking room escape game by a Japanese developer. Not only is this game great looking, it plays exceptionally well with several puzzles that will perplex and confound you, but that won't take you too long to solve.

Use logic to solve the mysteries with point-and-click interface, as well as two different ways to escape.

Unfortunately, as the name implies, color perception is required so you may experience difficulty getting out of the room if you're colorblind. However, an integrated save feature allows you to pick up the game later if you cannot finish in one sittting.Both English and Japanese versions available. Play it.

Labels: Fun Stuff

20 June 2007

Quote:
"Kai Shi Dong Le
Kuai Le Shi Xuan Ze"

Translation:
Starting to understand
Happiness is a choice

Labels: Meaningful Videos

Today's sharing during the Cell Meeting about joy did prepare me for a sad news after that.
I really did not expect him to be so stress regarding what his friends told him about his ex-girlfriend. This stress, I personally feel is an outflow of hidden hurts and unspoken love for his ex. My heart aches as he shares to me. But yet at the same time, I could understand how disturbed he is and I really symphatize his ex. I was about to burst in tears when I come up with the excuse of going to the toilet.

While I'm really in the toilet. I tried to calm myself. I prayed. I ask God to speak to me. Tell me what to do next. I stared at the grey door for awhile. ( I recalled Ramesh sharing with us that God will start speaking to us when we are ready to listen and when we stop talking.)

This verse came to my mind.

" Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God." - Philippians 4:6

Immediately I sense peace in my heart. This assurance. And this joy, of knowing that the One that I served did not leave me alone. He is in-charge. I just have to trust Him.

I called him after my toilet-prayer-session and told him what I wouldn't have told him by my strength. (by God's strength, i did it.) I told him to choose who he really likes. Coz I believe, no matter who he choose, one will get hurt. But no matter who gets hurt, God is gonna heal that person too. But as for his part, he just have to trust the Lord that God will choose the best for him.

Now, I understand why placing our eyes on Jesus is so important. The rough seas suddenly don't bother me anymore. What matter most to me is God. I'm very thankful. Really thankful that I can actually apply what I just learnt regarding joy 2hrs ago, in my life now. Amen!

ALL Glory to God!

Labels: My Emotions

19 June 2007

Try this test to identify yourself
as a right or left brain person:

1. Hold your hands together, as if you were praying. Look at your hands. If you see
Left thumb is below the right thumb ---> left brain
Right thumb is below the left thumb ---> right brian

2. Fold your arms in front of you (as if you are angry)
Right arm above left arm ---> left brain
Left arm above right arm ---> right brain

Based on 1+2 (order is important),
below is the interpretation of your personality:

Right-Left
Considerate, traditional, indirect type can instinctly read other's emotion, and respond friendly by natures. Although not very into taking intiatives in moving forward, but this person will always take a step back in supporting others. Stable personality and considerate, give others a being protected feeling. But the weakness is they cannot say no; regardless how unwilling they are, they will take care of others.

Right-Right
Loves challenges type Straightfoward. Once they decided on one thing, will take action right away. Very curious, and love challenges. Dare to face dangers without thinking through (sometimes foolishly). Their weakness is they dont listen to others, will filter in only what whey want to hear in a conversation, and very subjective. However, because of their straightforward attitude, they tend to be fairly popular.

Left-Left
Dedicated, cold, perfectionist Very logical in all aspects. The only way to defeat (or win over) him/her is through reasons. Has a lot of prides, and feeling strongly about doing the right thing. If they are your friends, they are very trustworthy. However, if they are your opponets, they will be very tough to deal with. Because they can be very "anal" as a perfectionist, they usually leave a bad impression of being hard to deal with when first met.

Left-Right
Likes to take care of others, leader type. Has a cool and keen observation ability to see through situations, yet still can be considerate in others needs. Because of their cool and calm nature, and strong sense of responsibility, they tend to become head of a group. Popular among people. However, they may not be able to help themselves in meddling because they want to take care of others too much. Very concerned about how others view them, and always on alert.

Have fun guyz! ÜÜÜ

Labels: Fun Stuff

14 June 2007

I'm going Genting Highland soon and again..Ha..
This time, as before, I'm not going to Casino to donate to Mr. Tan..*Hurl hurl*
Well, really looking forward to the trip because I'm going with him.
It has always been a ideal and affordable place where I thought it's magnificent scenery and cool weather worth the hours travelling.

Suffering from a wee bit of disappointment.
You know when you don't really feel like doing something, let's say watching a movie that you're not so excited about. But when you finally decide to watch because of the other party's alluring enticement, making you all excited and fired up and less than 5mins just after you hang up the phone, that fellow just called again to say,

"It's cancelled." *Grrr....* And this happened 2x today!

It's alright actually...
I'm going to watch "Seducing Mr. Perfect" now. Yeah!
Check out this site for FREE online movies:
http://www.crunchyroll.com (ATTENTION: Not kranjirow)
They have Singapore's Drama Serials! Amazing wide range of popular selections, from HK, Korean all the way to Taiwan and Malaysia dramas. MTVs & Animes too.

Happy watching. ÜÜÜ

Labels: Meaningful Videos

12 June 2007

Curiosity kills the cat. True. I read her blog, her testimonials left by him, her pictures with him. Thought I could deal with it. But browsing through them for less than 30mins, my heart already twinge. Being an expressive person myself, I always wanted to question him alot but whenever I'm with him, I just don't know how to. Even when he called and sense my insercurities, still I kept it from him after much promting. Why can't I express my thoughts freely with him?

Maybe I didn't want him to know that I feel inferior? Maybe. Thank God for his affirmation today. I feel much better. Now wondering when will he ask me that question. That important question. I wanted to be assured of a place in his heart. So its very important to me. But at the same time, I didn't want to hint him, making him feel as if I'm pushing him nor do I want him to take too long either. Contradicting.

I believe there's alot of reasons behind for him not to ask me that question. I feel he is not ready as he has not finish dealing with his heart. His friends. His churchmates and leaders. Somehow, my intuition tells me that the wedding is a barrier too. How do I know? It's so obvious, he dare not intro me to his friends. That's how I know. But holding my hands is a way of telling me that "Hey, I've chose you to be my girl, don't worry..."Does he know that...? I'm so confused because it's Contradicting.

Maybe I should believe that he is trying to be as responsible as possible with such a major decision. I will start with trusting the person whom I can, no, i mean should trust most. That's God. Then next, myself. With that, I believe I can trust him better. Hopefully. In fact, to think about it, he has not failed me yet. So why can't I bring myself to trust him? Is it the past? What is past is past. Ok, today is a gift. We all know that. Well, I should keep that in mind that he is my present. Hmm..

This place will sooth all my heartaches.
For the moment.
Korea's nice.
;...(

Labels: My Emotions