Bottled Thots - i u h e u x

31 October 2007

Serveral interesting news to share:

"Exorcism" Trial which will continue 31 Oct 07.
http://sg.news.yahoo.com/cna/20071025/tap-307798-231650b.html

And another big news I feel is..
I'm attached.
With Darius.
So sudd.
Its like dream to me.
Hope not.
Dreams are fake.

I feel its sudd bcos,
I nv tnk that he'll ever like me.
Maybe bcos he's nice to everyone.
So I wun think I'm any special.
Yup..

Since we've started,
I hope i'll treasure this r/s.
Putting God in the pic I guess will help.
Alot in fact.

Jia you bah.
Still a long way to go.
Alot to learn.
Hmm...

28 October 2007

Nothing much to update..
Just have to say i spent way way too much..
Enjoying life as if I've retired.
Outta budget le babe.
Time to stop all the blind shopping,
late night movies, mid night cabs and buffetsss..
They are the major killer to my little pocket.

This week is a good week.
I thank God for all things that have been so smooth.
Thank God for all the movies that I've watched.
For the wonderful company.
For the mid night shopping etc.
For the free ride.
I really need to save money for rainy days.
For weddings, for my future, for His kingdom.

MFP... Well, by faith lah.
Sure God will provide.
Heh..
By faith le lah.

Thank God for so many "free" treats this week too.
If not for them, guess i'll be broker. Heh..

Thank God for today's buffet @ Ikoi with
Darienna, Ling and Sam.
Table was book by Joanna tho,
too bad she cant make it.
Have a good time felloshipping with them.
Finding out what they like and nots.

Aww..
BTW
The food is GREAT!
Man... But why is my appetite so small..
I only ate like 3 rounds.
Not euff leh.
Hee..

Tmr I'm going Dempsey.
With ah Sam again..
And Amanda and Darius.
Another movie king.
And he runs by dunno why company's battery.
He really never say die.
I'm really curious how can anyone survive with just 2hrs of slp??
I cant.
And waking up early.
Double the cant.
Amazing...
I'm truly impressed.
Hurl hurl..

22 October 2007

Superbad is indeed bad.
Bad for the mind.
Soul and spirit.
I really went home to repent.
Laughing at those dirty jokes...
Ermm..like so bad...
But so funny...hee...

Frankly not recommeded for young crowd..
Pollutes the mind if you don't know how to filter some stuff.
Normally I do get inspirations from
movies but nah..not for this.

But I must admit its funny lah.
WaaaHaha..
Well, depends very much on the company too.
Both Darius and Zinc+Alex beside me laugh like so happily and loud.
Conclusion: Laughter is contagious afterall !

17 October 2007

Letting go.
Let your past get past you.

Mr. Woodcock reminds me of Doris Yap.
Nasty, heartless P6 teacher who loves to torture kids.
Her sarcastic voice still haunts me sometimes.

Joycelyn, my college lecturer. Pretty on the outside,
dark on the inside. Always pays "special" attention to me.
Failed me for no reason... literally NO Reason!

And Joyce, my ex-counter manager for Issey Miyake.
She's another biatch.. Opps! I mean another scary person
who really plays a big part to who I am today.

Characters in Common:
- sarcastic
- heartless
- stubborn
- selective
- anti-social
- bitter gourd faced
- hobby --> push people to their limits!

At the end of the day,
despite how much sufferings
I've went thru with these nasty ppl.
Hate to admit but they are ppl
who mould me to who I am today...
*damn...*

Like John Farley,
should I thank them?
Seriously..
I don't wished to.

I'm not the stupid blur sotong
naive and innocent girl anymore.
So time to let go babe...
In fact, they are the ones who taught me
to have a backbone and not to be
pushed around.

Maybe deep down in my heart,
I hated them for what they did.
But God allowed that for a reason.

It's planned.

God is indeed still in control.
Oh, thank you for using these nasty ppl,
motivating me to do the impossible.
Amen!

Can't believed I said this.
Yup...

*Hurl hurl...*

09 October 2007

When i browse thru my past entries..
It's 99% about him.
Wah kao..Bu hui bah..
Am i nutsss...

Starting from today,
I will not mention about him.
For as long as I can.
I'm determined to move on.

I need divine help from above tho. =)

Ok, great cell session earlier on.
I'm leading worship again.
Hee.. Errm..still din do well
coz i'm still afraid to lead bah..
Dunno why there's this fear.

I'm pretty touch by the songs that I lead today.
Chorus:
Your the Father of Creation
The risen Lamb of God
You're the One who walked away
From the empty tomb that day
And You set your people free
With love and liberty
And I can walk with You
Every night and every day

(Esp the highlighted part.)
I thank God for having everything planned.
Putting me in CET Modern Cults class.
Because of that,
that part when we always sing
of Jesus bodily resurrection
became very meaningful to me.
Yep, that's what the cults deny.
They deny of His Supreme Deity.

Fun ahh.
When God speaks,
and you heard.
That's fun.
Exciting!

I'm so glad I'm back to church again.
It's really not an easy step for me.
Keep reminding myself,
I'm here not to be judge by the people there.
They can think whatever they want.
I just wanna be with my God.
Blah blah..

But thank God for this wonderful CG that I'm in.
I used to dread going church and cell,
but I'm always looking forward nowadays.
It's not really about the people,
rather it's my attitude that was changed.
Not that I want to change or what,
but You've changed me.

And thank YOU!

Pssst:
Tml is 11th Friendship Day. 10/10/07
Thank God for my dear sisters!
With me always, thru thick and thin.

06 October 2007

I've this strange clashing emotions.
Sometimes, I don't even know who I am.
Wavering from left to right.

Prayed that He'll create more
opportunities for me if he is the one,
according to His will.

And he disappeared.

So he's not the one?

I don't know...

Sometimes I feel tired of waiting.
I feel like someone with no identity.
Someone in the dark.
I can't express too much.
Bcoz I don't know what I've said,
is it really from my heart.
Or my mind?

Follow your heart.
or
Follow your mind?

...

02 October 2007

Is it so difficult for him
to love me wholeheartedly?

He loves Jamie despite knowing
that she has another guy.
It's that kind of love.
That blind.
That deep.

Now what...
Another better ex
is now single?
Could have been
with her if she agrees?

So who am I?
A backup?
Damn...
I feel so lousy.
I'm just as precious
as you are in God's eyes.
Do I have to be treated like a trash...?

My lovelife has always been so difficult.
Hmm..